F*ck What You Thought Was A Yoga Body

Shocker, another yoga post. Although, I suppose this piece could also be titled “summer body” or “perfect” body.

The truth is I wasted way too many years not attending a yoga class because of the way I thought I had to look before stepping through the doors. I thought I didnt belong because I had love handles and I had been loved myself with good food, which meant I had gained weight.

It was at the most crucial time in my life, when I really could have used yoga the most, that I felt too self-concious to walk through the door.

Also, I want to just stop here and say that I’m not hating on anyone for having a beautiful fit body, all I’m saying is that having one isn’t a prerequisite to attending yoga or even becoming an experienced yogi.

If you want better health that’s amazing. My favourite way to achieve that is holistically, by eating well, moving, and doing something for the mind. Meditation and yoga both have been scientifically proven to help depression, anxiety and mood stability.

If you do or don’t look like an Instagram model theres nothing wrong with that. Social media and society have both told us if we look different there must be something wrong.

Like Elizabeth says in Eat Pray Love “Let me ask you something, in all the years you’ve undressed in front of a man has he ever asked you to leave? Has he ever gotten up and walked out? No! Because he doesn’t care, he’s with a naked woman. He just won the lottery.”

Again here, not saying your perception of yourself should be based on what anyone else thinks of you whether they are a man or a woman.

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Back to the yoga. The practice of yoga is for you, for how you feel during and after, for the things it allows you to work through. Yoga is a way of life, a way of love – forgiveness – peace – non-judgement.. and acceptance. Mostly acceptance that we are human.

So with of of our human-ness we must just let go of whatever we thought was the yoga body and come to realize every body is a yoga body.

Don’t let anything stop you from trying something, from seeking inner peace, from practicing self-care. It’s not about flexibility…it’s about the experience.

The only way to transcend suffering is together.

Love,

Carlee.

Remember: You are Loved. You are Worthy. You are Blessed.

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Why I Started A Yoga Studio At The Worst Possible Time.

I couldn’t think of a great title for this piece, hopefully you, the reader, isn’t a “judge a blog piece by the title” kind of person. I guess I’m thinning out the herd.

I recently embarked on a grand adventure. I started a yoga/movement studio and I have never been more scared, energized and happier. I had wanted to have a space to offer “self-care” type activities for quite a long time. Looking back in my journal I had written about opening a boutique training studio three years ago.

So, you ask… do I believe in manifesting your own reality? That’s a hard yes.ย 

It was the absolute wrong time in my life for many reasons. I was really developing a good writing career when all of my electronics either broke or malfunctioned a few months prior which meant I had lost all of the amazing interviews I had just done. The ceiling in my apartment was leaking, and my landlord wasn’t fixing it until it was flooding my bathroom…he then just tore the ceiling down and left a gapping hole. I was looking to move to a better apartment, I had only a part-time job, my mother had just suffered a stroke and my grandmother was needing help after leaving the hospital from open heart surgery.

There was a LOT going on. Maslow’s hierarchy of needs was crumbling around me, but I had a strange sense that there would NEVER be a “right” time and that perhaps…surrounded by the chaos it was actually the perfect time. So, like in some kind of freakish twilight zone I searched for an affordable space and opened within 2 months of deciding to go for it.

I used a lot of my savings and created a space that would be inclusive of everyone, this meant having a sliding scale for pricing so that individuals on social assistance, ODSP, or in recovery could afford to take regular classes. It honestly felt good and made me feel alive to be doing something productive. It took 2 weeks to paint the entire studio, get the equipment needed and put some workshops together for the first week.

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We are now going into our third week open, so still very new. We already have a lot of regular people coming in to enjoy the classes and it has been so wonderful to see a tribe forming before my eyes of supportive, enthusiastic people wanting to experience yoga and movement to heal themselves AND live those practices off the mat as well.

We now have Zumba, Kickboxing, Euphoric and Bootcamp.

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My manifested dream is unfolding before my eyes… and today I really thought about how the timing was COMPLETELY off. How sometimes you just need to take one of the biggest risks of your life amongst the chaos, because if you’re not willing to take a risk then…when will you be?

My mom has made a full recovery, my grandmother is getting stronger and stronger each day, I still don’t own a laptop or voice recorder again yet but eventually I will and I will continue to write, AND I’m moving in June to a better apartment.

The struggle is here still as I juggle running a business with working a job, and running a business means trying to earn an actual income in the first year.

Honestly though, I have never felt more free or more focused…or more living in my “purpose” as I do when I help others feel good… and then of course write about it.

 

I hope you follow along on this journey with me because I will be sharing my take on entrepreneurship, yoga and self-care.

 

Remember: you are loved, you are worthy, you are blessed.

 

Carlee. xoย